Difficult Conclusions.

Sometimes it is hard to come to a conclusion about something. This becomes even more difficult if you spend time studying a situation. After more than 10 years of studying the Bible and learning more about the God of Christianity, I am becoming more and more convinced that there isn't one. How can a God whom I cry out to ignore my plea? I cry out in anguish, in loneliness, longing to be close to this God, close to His people. He neither confirms or denies these anguishes and requests; He doesn't answer them at all. That doesn't sound like a loving God to me. It sounds like another contrivance of the human mind in an effort to feel close to something that lacks an existence. The more I study, the less I believe.