Composing.

I have really began to doubt my effectiveness as a musician, so I have recently decided it is definitely time for me to get back to composing. There was a time in my life that I'd write a piece a day; it didn't matter if it was a full-fledged piece or just simply a musical idea, I wrote it down anyway. I haven't done this in almost a year, maybe more. How will I be an effective music teacher if I've lost the joy that I used to find in music? I used to be able to experience music on a much deeper level than most people; There are a lot of days that go by now that I don't listen to music at all. This scares me. In order to be a truly good music teacher, you need to be able to convey the feelings and thoughts of the composer in the closest way possible to the original idea. I really hope that I can get back to putting my ideas down on paper and get back to the joy of music.