Pretending.

When we were little kids, we used to play games and "pretend". We could be anything we wanted to be at that exact moment in time; we could be astronauts, firemen, ballerinas, sports stars, or whatever. Now that I'm older, I realize that playing pretend has been nothing but detrimental in my life.


I'm tired of pretending to like everyone I meet.

I'm tired of pretending to put myself wholly into a friendship that gives nothing back.

I'm tired of pretending like I understand things.

I'm tired of pretending I'm happy all the time when I'm really very, very lonely.


I guess I'm just tired.