So I've been thinking a lot lately. This is nothing new to me. As soon as a new person gets to know me, they find out in the first few minutes that I am a thinker. So here's what I've been mulling over. In the 1994 film "The Shawshank Redemption", the main character, Andy Dufresne, erroneously serves nearly 20 years in prison for a crime he did not commit. He bides his time, planning a grand escape which he triumphantly makes at the end of the picture (3:38 mark in the video).
I am beginning to identify more and more with Andy Dufresne. There's a line in the movie where Andy Dufresne states that Geology is the study of pressure and time. That's all it takes really; pressure, and time. I've had more than my fair share of both.
I know what it feels like to be wrongfully trapped. He was trapped by a crime he didn't commit; I am trapped by family obligation. I know what it feels like to have to bide your time, to plan your escape until you can make it to something greater.
I am so sick of being tied down by other people's responsibilities.
I am tired of paying other people's bills but not being able to afford my own.
I am tired of having to put up with other people's petty, unimportant bullshit.
In the grand scheme of things, none of it is important. It is all inconsequential. There is no reason to make such a large deal out of everything. Somehow, people still do.
I am tired of being the person that has to deal with other people's problems because they're not strong enough to do it themselves.
One day soon, I too will have my Shawshank Redemption.
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