I'm so tired.

"I'm going to say what I really mean this time,
I don't need you around to speak my mind."
~Popple~


I'm not much the type to complain. Where other people complain about their circumstances or let jealousy, lust and lies run rampant in their lives, I've never really had a serious problem with any of that. But sometimes, it is good to let everything out. To complain. To gripe. To piss and moan. This is one of those times.

Neatly put, I am tired.


I'm tired of people who skate by on life doing the absolute minimum and continually get away with it, while I bust my backside to keep my head above water.

I'm tired of being out of school. Some of my classmates that are in school continuously complain about having to go to class, about having to do homework, and write papers. You know what? You're lucky. You GET to go to school, you GET to do homework to further educate yourselves, you GET to write papers to increase your understanding of the subjects you're supposed to be learning. So quit complaining, get off your lazy backsides and take pride in your education. There are many of us that would be more than willing to take your place if you can't get off your duff and make the mark.

I'm tired of my best friend being a showoff. You have a fiance. You're getting married in less than a month. That's GREAT. I am really happy for you, and happy that you've found the person you think you want to spend the rest of your life with. That's awesome. But do you really have to sit there and make out with your fiance in front of me, even though we've talked about the situation and how uncomfortable it makes me feel? I know you're doing it to make me mad; it's only so obvious when you lay one on her and then pointedly look at me directly afterwords. Grow up, and for God's sake, learn some self-control.

I'm tired of having to step up and take responsibility where other people have dropped the slack. It must be nice to skate by on the coattails of other people while they do your work for you. I wouldn't know; I've never had that opportunity, since I've always been busting my back. I am the epitome of a self-made man. I haven't had any help from anyone on this earth. Together, God and I have pressed forward to forge all the trails in my life. I've never had a free ride.

I'm sick and tired of being single, and I'm sick and tired of being lonely. I'm not a bad guy. I see all these people around me who are complete douchebags getting nice girls as their girlfriends. What is that about? Why won't girls give a halfway decent guy a chance? Somebody that isn't going to cheat on them, or drink, or do drugs, or womanize them. A guy that will be concerned for them; will laugh with them, will cry with them, a guy that isn't too much of a tough guy to hold her and tell her she'll be ok, but isn't such a pansy that he won't stand up for her in a fight.

I'm tired of complaining; I'll see you all again in the distant future when I have the desire for another outburst such as this.